wireless? Nice...

i got this e66 unit from nokia and its wifi ready. And more than timing, te nging bought a router here in their house. So that means each time im here ill be online. Weee.. Hehe.. Wait how do i upload photos here.. Hmmm..

OMG ^_^

oh my gosh!!!

its been awhile since ive been here ^_^

its my younger brothers birthday today and they(together with his classmates) are having a good time outside... he was home late from school and mama wanted me to wait for them til they finish^_^ its quite silly though cuz my brother's already 19 for me to look over him.

but hey it bought me time to write this right?^_^

i was suppose to get my certificate tomorrow. my certificate for the culinary arts training that i had that was sponsored by DMFI. most of my classmates will be getting theirs at 9am. but i doubt i can make it at that time ^_^i miss them and i would looove to see em around^_^

anyway, hearts day is fast approaching but instead of thinking of me getting a date i passed it up cuz there are some far more important things that i wanted to accomplish... i just hope i acould finish them the earliest possible time ^_^

so wish me luck... see yah nxt time..

hope itll be sooner ^_^

as i wake up in the morning

a smile is pasted on my face
its you that im thinking
my most beautiful grace



each and everyday is lovely
with you everything is easy
my heart is ever so aglow
ive just been needing you to know



youre a beam of light in darkness
cure and healer of loneliness
ive never really thought its true
that i ever needed was you

pahungaw :cry:

i never knew how it hurts to be deceived played with when on the other hand you are so damn sincere...

it just hurts.

when youre looking at something you thought is nice. when youre thinking this might be one thing you thought you could have for a lifetime. when you thought that they are true... but they are not.......

manong, sayang eh. i gave you who i am. i always told my sister to set aside feelings of 'fallling in love' with you thinking we all three could have something so much better than what lovers have... but then iguess, im wrong...

who am i to say that anyway? maybe, yaoure looking at me differently...older than you but havent even landed on a job... but i dont see people that way. i wanna feel their hearts. but then again, im mistaken... cuz u dont have one.

i was honest with you. i never pretended. i trusted you. i was thinking we could develop REAL friendship.

it just hurts to see you so shallow. it has wounded me cause God knows how sincere i was to you... i wonder, havent you felt it???

maybe i was just wishing for that something that wasnt even there in the first place.

?! bUrdEnsUm me?!@#

i was quite taken aback by what ive been through and what ive heard about... just lately... kills me... i didnt know i was/am KSP... i asked myself, was i? am i? i realized to some degree...yeah. but at that instance? no, i wasnt...

i already told lala that whenever she smokes in front of me, wherever we are, theres no asking or saying anything whatsoever; im leaving her immediately and head home... well 3 of us 4 smoked, i was like sould i go or respect the group or something... i was left with the words '' i wanna go home cuz i feel like im out of place'' since im the only 1 who doesnt smoke... and that makes me KSP? i dont know how others may filter the event but will i be judged by their system not having any idea of whats goin through my head..

i mean, he may have some point about us being open but hey people have bondaries and maybe we should be a lot more careful with the words we use.. i didnt mind being told that i was going home so early that it makes others cranky but... whatever! im not that close enough to you that you can use insulting words to tell me who you think i am.

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and for once im fed up... FED UP... i love all the petty quarrels that we use to have, the arguments and all the mahay2 and the kind of friendship that we have honey... but lately youre making me tick by always making something arguable out of something that i say... and you were all making stories to make me believe what youre feeling but it all shows how shallow and pretending you are...

haaay... i love all the fun that we use to have unta... the kind of friendship we have that i never had before... but lately were not talking anything sensible anymore....

hope youll always be ok... ill miss the fun we had :(